Jaina

What I Am...

Everybody has been asking me, 'What Are You?' And by that they mean, goth, emo, prep. Well, I have a few things to say to them. I am a punk rocker emo prep girl. If you have no clue what that is, it's me. I love to shop. (prep) love to play sports, (rocker) love rock and metal music, (also rocker) and I love skinny jeans and converse sneakers. (emo) I hope that has explained what I am to those who have asked me that question. To some, I'm just a girl who tries to be popular, but really doesn't fit in. Sure I'm irregularly cute, but that doesn't make me fit in. I don't TRY to be popular...I try NOT to be popular. It makes perfect sense to me. But to some, I'm an outcast. A trader, and a really bad friend. And I'll admit, I have been a horrible friend twice in my life. Once I got beat up inside for it, and she never forgave me and hates me with all her heart now. (Actually, that same prediciment has happend to me twice in my life, so two people hate me. I will not name them) And the other I was trying to help a really great friend of mine build up her self esteem, but it reversed on me. So, I'll be the first person to admit this, I'm a bad person. I lie sometimes, (everyone does) I do bad things (everyone does) and sometimes I'm not a good friend. (everyone is some point in their life.) I've had my fair share of bathroom runs before the tears spill on the playground moments of my life, but I'm not an emotional girl. Some people say I'm a, 'drama queen' but I'm so not. I HATE girl drama. I try to stay away from it, thought this year at school will be difficult since this girl WILL give me drama so I have to be on my most careful watch, and not do anything that will give her something to gossip to other people about me, and spread horrible rumors that could make me cry really hard. I don't want to cry on her account one more time. No, she's made me cry enough this summer. She is NOT going to me bully for the sixth grade. Lets just hope that I don't do anything that offeneds her in anyway next year. I have said what, and who I am in this post. I am proud that I have just written a chunk of my personal life down. It makes me feel better about going forth through life without a care. (except for the girl drama hurtling my way and will hit me on the first day of school) So thank you for reading my problems in a way. And have a nice rest of your life. ~sobeautiful~